hindsight

going back 4 years to earlier material.... a little less refined














Hindsight And Foresight
4-11-10


I don't need to follow after what I thought I heard
As like in the days
I listened to the walls
You say I'm a lucky duck
But I claimed to be as the snared bird
Joyous and grievous
Of my trip to Niagra Falls
We say that our troubles are double
But who said anything about trouble
Yet myself I still deceive
Not very spiritual in asking for a reprieve
God can strike me down anytime he chooses
Yet it is he whom thinks this way that loses.....


























Quoting James
4-11-10


It's bad but it's good
It's good but it's bad
It's grievous but it's joyous
It's happy but it's sad
I've had my ups and downs
I've had my anathemas and my crown
I've seen fire and rain
I've seen pleasure and pain
Sometimes a spoil sport
Other times a good sport
Yet it is such times that encourage and exhort
Seeming to be down and out
Yet they say it's only in my mind
Claiming to be saved
But I feel like I'm lost
Still reading up on the Passover
And the Pentecost.....














I Fail On My Own
4-11-10


I remember a strange girlfriend
That would pop my pimple
But now that I look back to it
It's not that simple
And still I am obdurate
Stony and brass browed
Availing myself to all I have been allowed
And God says if I bear no fruit
Then he'll cut down my tree
Yet the roots and the trunk will remain
And I'll still hear and see
And I ask why do I do what I do
To see that God has a purpose
In the grapes and in the brew
I mean well
But I deserve death and hell
And I suppose this is a good sign...














To Do What I Should
4-11-10


It's easy to say that I'm satisfied
Even when some say we ought to stay hungry
As there remains one more mystery where I cried
Where deep down inside I am starving
No use in thinking about next Halloween
Or the pumpkins we might be carving
She said that marijuana was detrimental to my education
Yet we all learn at our own pace
Of the creature and the creation
Voices say I ought to improvise
And I'll be glad when I did....












No Seed
4-11-10


Will I be as one who dies and leave no seed
Will I be as the man that lies
In saying I have no need
Whoever I ask this to
No, don't answer
As it is looking ahead
That will serve as cancer
Yet the fruit is more than our offspring
As the bird will have his right to his other wing
All mixed up in the left and right
To the point where I don't know my black from white
And so I find the will to carry on
To see that I have arrived the moment I have gone....














Better Deal
4-11-10


I take this abuse
I suffer it
I allow it, I permit it
And I have not a choice to cut it off
Nor quit it
I don't remember when I woke up today
Yet such uncertainty gives me something to say
Stuck with a choice
Yet I look for a better plan
Trading in a Ford for a Rolls Royce
Where I find madness of eating from a can
And I will be strong when I am weak
As I will be proud wherein I am meek
Where I ask why
Where God says why not
Where I remember the psychological test
Of the ink blot....