matter of time

Matter Of Time
10-25-10

It is proven I can write a whole lot more
When I'm down and out
Where the remedy of such in me is no longer the draft or stout
And even while under this cloud
I maintain my can-do attitude
When in the afternoon
I wait to get out and obtain cat supplies and food
So I will finish my novel to pass the time
When unrefined so becomes this rhyme...




I Want To Do Better
10-26-10

Last night I decided to take up meditation
And a new kind of praying
In hopes to establish for myself a freethinking Christianity
I chant the mantra
I love you, Lord
I want to do better
And take deep breaths
As I take upon me new forms of lives and deaths
I was doing so much better this way
So I will take it up in hopes to keep it up
And play some Moody Blues for my father
To practice love in this life....




Like It Were Music
10-26-10

Still praying for my poetry to return
For I have much to say and matters to judge and discern
Hoping to stay out of bed
I'd rather have music in my ears than in my head
As a mother forgets about her pain when the child is born
Where joy will follow the state of mind of the melancholy and forlorn
Forsaking the objective of my intent of quantity
As I simply just slow down and enjoy it
Like it were music...





Part Of The Therapy
10-26-10

Part of the therapy
Is slowing down and descending from your ivory tower
And taking off your crown
Needing a job yet anticipating
Going back out into the world
After all of this time
Yesterday I went to the place where I would apply
As I felt the blue devils of the low and high
In my mind I was saying
That I was already setting myself up for failure
It was just a bad day
So I came home to reevaluate and to rededicate
It is all part of the therapy...





Divine Appointment
10-26-10

Met another Christian along the way
And she boosted my faith
We talked in group and she prayed and I prayed with her
Need to take heed not to get proud because you are
For God gave us all we have
Our gift, our life and our car
So I stepped out to meet her
And she asked me if I was in a nervous wreck
I suppose it was the holy Spirit
She left and said she'd pray for me
And when I got home my faith was tested
As if I were back in the fire
I suppose that these things are all part of God's plan...